This is the hardest post I think I have written because normally I write my resolutions list and hide it away so in case I don’t complete one or several no one has to know or if I tell anyone they are superficial and I soon forget what I said. This year or this past year I read something during NaNoWriMo that resonated in me. It was the driving force behind Write or Die by Doctor Wicked
If I don’t write my own stories I am only disappointing myself. I experience perpetual disappointment in myself so I’m kind of used to it. Add to that the fact that I simply have neither the self-discipline to write consistently on my own nor the capacity for self-deception that would enable me to create artificial deadlines.
An idea that sort of hit home with me, I can disappoint myself but it is much harder to disappoint other people especially outside of my normal circle of family and friends (that came out as family and fiends first) who I also seem to disappoint on a continual basis. I forgot about that until I was sitting in church the Sunday after New Year and my pastor gave a sermon on Resolution in your spiritual life. He said if you don’t make the resolutions you will never change anything. I had an epiphany there that it doesn’t matter that we rarely achieve all of our goals but setting the goal is what is important because even if I don’t read my bible every day or read 100 books this year in trying I am achieving more than I did the year before and bettering ourselves is the reason for New Year Resolutions. So here is to a new year and better habits *raises imaginary Sparkling Grape Juice (I’m not 21 yet so real alcohol isn’t happening plus alcohol is nasty) Glass*.
My Resolution list and the reason behind each:
- Read my bible every day—I am terrified of growing stagnant in my faith. I don’t want to become another statistical figure of someone going to college and losing their faith.
- Read 100 books this year—I love to read and this past fall I have slumped in my reading, I think having a tangible goal will allow me to force myself through book I want read but simply haven’t put the time in. Examples: Anna Karenina and Here’s Looking a Euclid. Also I believe writing is directly linked to reading and the more quality writing I read the better my own writing will become. See # 4 for more info on that.
- Blog at least once a week—I love my blog but I think aiming for more than one post a week discourages me because when I get behind I get discouraged.
- Improve my writing— Okay so as previously stated I believe that writing and reading are directly link but I also believe I could read every book ever written and if I don’t write, I still won’t be able too. I love writing and I feel like I have a lot to say but putting it on paper is the hard part.
- Actually finish one of the three novels I am working on—I have started to date 12 novel (at least) and have finished none. What happens is I get started and never finish because I lose inspiration which is why I have posted one on Wattpad (link here) I hope that seeing people read my story will inspire me to continue writing even when I hit a brick wall.
- Lose weight—I am overweight and have been since sixth grade. I need now to lose weight for my health and because statistically if I don’t lose it before I turn 20 I won’t; I turn twenty in July.
- Seriously pursue piano—currently I play piano about as well as I did when I was eight and I didn’t stop then I took a break and then started back when I was thirteen. I got pretty good but now I can’t even play some of the pieces I was playing when I stopped at seventeen.
This year I hope to accomplish seven things granted seven huge things but even if I can’t find it in myself to complete all seven I will do better than last year for even trying. As I said in the beginning without making goals you can never reach them.
Thanks for Reading, Mary Grace Camp J